New Year's resolutions

I haven't actually sat down and thought of what a new year's resolution means for quite a few years.  I usually just let the new year wash over me in a drunken haze and enjoy the moment.  Making resolutions feels so..... planned? boring?  serious?  accountable?  Not sure what my problem is, but this year will be different.

What has changed, motherhood?  Wondering what my life will be like now that I'm safely in my 30's?  (I'm an adult married mother in my 30's..... when the h*11 did that happen?)  Was it watching that dreadful movie "Happy New Year"?  Don't care why; it's just happening.

This year I pledge to:
-smile more, frown less
- cook more
- wake up with a smile
- tell nate how much I appreciate him more often
- finish this list, because seriously, the 1001 days deadline came and went and I need to touch base with what happened.  I am okay with not being done with every item, but I'm not okay with just leaving the whole thing just hanging there unaddressed
- admit to myself that I'm just not good at this whole blogging business
- finally wean LP off the breast milk, and get her to take less bottles
- tell LP that's she's the awesomest kid in the world, but manage to not let it go to her head.
- organize my photos (digital and print).  For real.  It's awesome and fun but also soooo daunting
- become fashionable again.  I pulled it off for a while while working in NYC.  I miss how good I felt about myself when I was properly accessorized.
- get the house set up just right.  Put things on the walls, finish decorating. Clean it!
- admit that we need help.  Daycare and cleaning service it is.  There's no shame in that, and we should be able to put it in our budget. When there's a will there's a way.
- visit the Holiday Inn Hotel I helped design before it gets torn down in the name of "progress"
- feel in control of my life again.  It will be good to slow down a bit.  In the last 4 months we've moved twice in 2 states, 3 different cities, been unemployed and re-employed, and have taken an international vacation.  I feel rightfully exhausted, and am looking forward to a period of content stability.
- stop complaining about LP, either to others or to myself.  Though I realize that motherhood can be exhausting, and it's perfectly understandable to feel overwhelmed and express that, I don't want to put negative energy into our home.  We are lucky to have such an energetic, cheerful, healthy child.  So what if she eats like a bottomless pit, likes to climb on everything, doesn't sleep through the night, and has a stubborn personality?  The good news is that she's a healthy eater, who's been great at every doctor's checkup, she's social and cuddly, super smart, and is a true delight to have around.  Must remember that whenever I feel overwhelmed
- Feel in control of my food intake.  Really get back in the weight watchers mode.  This relates directly to being more fashionable.  I want to fit into the cute clothes.
- stop reading online celebrity tabloids.  The Kardashians finally saturated my tolerance for this whole stupidity.  I miss the days of Katie Holmes baby bump watch.  Such a simpler time....